Ch. 13: Fairy Tale
By Lear Lady…..
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Their
destination lay some distance from the military hospital. It was a long hike, but it was even longer with tense silence
wedged between them. Jessica didn't
volunteer any words, and Wildstar didn't bother coaxing any from her. The only sound was the echoing rhythm of
their footsteps throughout the cavernous supply tunnel.
They
finally emerged into the tentative light of a massive cavern. Wildstar stopped at the entrance of the
tunnel and surveyed the sight before him.
The crumbling ruins of an abandoned underground city lay before
them. Some buildings were offset from
their foundations, others brandished scares and cracks
in their masonry as testament to their survival. Still, others were crumbled completely;
silent reminders that man's work, no matter how advanced, was always
temporary. The grade of the supply road
was very steep. It was obvious these
structures were closer to the surface and more susceptible to the radiation
seeping into the earth.
The
air was heavy and stale. Wildstar
suspected the ventilation system at this level had failed or had been purposely
shut down.
A
dim, ghostly light filtered through powerful solar tubes in the ceiling of the
cavern. At this level, solar tubes could
still conduct natural light into the city.
It was night on the surface, but the highly reflective coatings in the
tubes could even disperse moonlight effectively. The streets and the walkways were still
visible, but they were only outlines in the silvery illumination.
Wildstar
picked up his pace to catch up with Jessica.
She was navigating her way through the debris of crumbling
buildings. Her head was down as she
trudged forward. She seemed oblivious to
her surroundings, showing more interest in the placement of her feet than in
the strange scenery around them. It
seemed, she had done this trek many times before.
It
wasn't hard to see the building was once a hospital. The floors were tiled. Torn, dusty privacy curtains hung like
cob-webs from the ceilings. Their forms
cast eerie shadows over abandoned beds, overturned tables, and broken
implements as a pale light streamed through shattered windows. There was a path worn through the dust on the
tile, a sign of footprints. Wildstar
sighed with some relief. There were
other people here.
Jessica
made her way to a stairwell at the back of the room. She opened the door and entered, but didn't
wait for Wildstar. He caught the door,
just before it closed, and followed her up several flights of steps.
“We've
never used the first few floors.”
Jessica kept climbing steadily.
Their footsteps were heavy and loud on the stairs, but she didn't turn
to him when she spoke. “This part of the
city has been abandon for several years now. They don't look for us here.”
“Who
doesn't look for you here?” Wildstar
asked, but instead of answering his question, she forced open the stairwell
door, and he was momentarily engulfed by a flood of artificial light. When his eyes adjusted, Jessica was walking
down an aisle between rows of occupied beds.
He looked from one side to the other and was stunned to see row after
row of beds extending into the distance.
Few were occupied. Some held
adults, but most of the blankets covered smaller forms... children.
“Doc?” A
young woman looked up from her patient. “Jess! What... what's
going on?” Her eyes widened as she
stared at Wildstar. “Please tell me this
is a friend of yours!”
“Don't
worry about him!”
“You
can't just...”
“Not
now, Kate! Did you do what I asked?”
“Of course! As much as I could!”
“What
about the doctor?”
“You
know doctors! They make the worst
patients! Maybe you can talk some sense
into her!” She pulled a handful of
syringes from her pocket, then separated them into two
hands. “These are for Doctor
Alexander.” She handed Jessica the
syringes in her right hand. “These are
for Megumi.” She gave Jessica the
remaining syringes.
“Megumi? I
thought... Is she hurting?”
“Not
anymore... She wanted to see you
again. She asks for you when you're
gone.” The woman paused and gave Jessica
a very serious look. “I couldn't...”
“I'll
take care of it!” Jessica snapped.
She
turned and left the young woman without words, and Wildstar followed. The woman stared at him as he walked by, and
he reciprocated with an equally intense stare.
Jessica walked to a row of privacy curtains near the wall. She quietly pushed the curtains aside and
looked in.
“Greetings, child.”
A woman's voice rose from the draping fabric.
“Doctor
Alexander.” Jessica pushed the curtain
aside and entered the enclosure.
Wildstar remained outside, but he observed the the
interaction between the two through the opening in the flexible barrier. Her breathing was labored and she was very
pale. “I understand you're refusing your
medication again.” Jessica sat down in a
chair at her bedside. She closed the
computer in the woman's lap and set it aside, then she
went about taking the woman's vitals.
“That
stuff makes me sleepy, and I like to know what's going on!” She stopped Jessica with the touch of her
hand, and they looked at each other.
“Your brother...”
“Peter.”
“Peter. How is he?”
Jessica
nodded. “You know that hard head you
were always joking about? It came in
handy this time.”
She
smiled. “Didn't I always say...”
“Your
greatest drawback can be your greatest asset!”
Jessica finished her sentence as she went back to checking vital
signs.
The
doctor noticed Wildstar outside the curtains.
“Now, who is this young man?”
Jessica
didn't answer until she completed her counting.
Jessica glanced at him. “Don't
try to change the subject! Your
breathing is rapid, your pulse is fast, and you look like you haven't slept in
a week! I'm guessing you're in a lot of
pain!”
“There
are others here who need it more!”
“Yes,
but we have enough now! I've seen to
that!”
“Come
in! Come in!” The woman gestured to Wildstar with a pale
hand.
“This
is Derek Wildstar,”
Jessica said flatly. “He's
a member of the...”
The
woman's eyes brightened. “The Star Force!” She
pushed herself up in the bed until she was sitting up. “I read about you and the others! You were under Captain Avatar's command!”
“Yes,
ma'am,” Wildstar
replied as he offered his hand to her.
They shook hands. She moved her
legs over and patted the bed in a gesture for him to be seated beside her,
since extra chairs were lacking.
Wildstar politely obeyed.
Jessica
sighed with frustration. Obviously, his
visit was a distraction from her preferred topic.
“I
was very sorry to hear of his passing!”
Doctor Alexander smiled, and she touched Wildstar's hand. “He was a very good man.”
“You
knew him?”
Jessica
intervened. “Captain Avatar came to us
for treatment many times.”
“Treatment?”
Wildstar began, but Jessica anticipated his question as she took a syringe
from her lap.
“He
couldn't go through military channels.”
She reached for the port on the Doctor's intravenous drip, but the
feisty woman attempted to slap her hand away.
“If they would've known the extent of his illness, they would've
questioned his ability to command and he didn't want that.”
Jessica
finally grabbed the Doctor's wrist and gently forced her arm to the bed. She emphasized the gesture with a commanding
glare. “Doctor Alexander is the leading
researcher in cancer therapy, when she's not driving me crazy!”
“I'm
leading by default!” Doctor Alexander's
smile was weaker now. “Everyone else is
dead.”
“Cancer?”
Wildstar asked.
Jessica
glanced at him over her shoulder as she injected a port just below Doctor
Alexander's saline drip. “That's right,
Derek. Didn't you know? Radiation sickness is just the
beginning.”
Wildstar
ignored Jessica's pointed statement and smiled politely at the Doctor. “I'm honored, Doctor Alexander!”
“The
honor is mine, young man. Please, tell
me you bring us good news! How soon will
we be able to see the sun again?”
“The
news is good, but I'm afraid I'm not privy to the time-line, ma'am. Our technical officer is overseeing
preparations.”
“Ah,”
she smiled, “best to leave it to the experts!”
She patted him on the hand. “Now,
what brings you here? Are you having
trouble? Are you ill?”
“No, ma'am.” He
glanced at Jessica. “I'm just trying to
understand.”
“Understand?”
“Yes. What is this place? Who are these people?”
“You've
been off-world for a long while.”
“Yes. All of my assignments after the academy have
been off-world.”
“That's
very fortunate.” She touched his cheek
with the back of her hand. It was pale
and cool against his
skin. “Good color. You look very healthy. These people haven't been so lucky.” The doctor sighed and sunk back into her
pillows. The medication was taking
affect. “They have no voice,
and no home... ”
Jessica
sighed as she stood from her chair.
“That medication is making her sentimental.” She walked past Wildstar and touched his
shoulder on the way out. It was her
silent indication for him to follow.
Wildstar
stood and noticed the Doctor was fighting to keep her eyes open. When he walked through the curtains, Jessica
paused at the opening. “Please try to
rest, Doctor Alexander. We can't have
you wearing yourself out!” She grasped
the curtains and closed them in one sharp movement.
“Yeah,
yeah, yeah...” came the Doctor's fading reply.
Wildstar glanced at Jessica in time to see her roll her eyes. She sighed indignantly.
She
turned and started walking, brushing past Wildstar as she mumbled, “I swear... that
woman is going to drive me to drink.”
“I
heard that!” Doctor Alexander snapped.
“Funny...
I could say the same about you,” Wildstar said as he walked beside her. “This is it?
You're caring for
refugees?” he asked, but Jessica didn't answer. She seemed distracted by her thoughts. She suddenly stopped and froze him with a
very serious look. “Do you have any
experience with children?”
“What?” The question caught Wildstar by surprise.
Jessica
glared at him. “Children!
You know… Little versions of adults?”
“Uh...”
“It's
not a trick question.”
“I
WAS one once! Does that count?”
“Close
enough.” She grabbed his arm and pulled him
in the direction of a shadowy, secluded corner.
She jerked back the privacy curtain, revealing a small bundle tucked
beneath several layers of blankets. Dark
wavy hair peeked above the folds of blankets.
Small brown eyes followed them as Jessica led Wildstar to a chair next
to the bed. Colorful drawings decorated
the walls and fluttered gently when the ventilation system kicked in.
“Megumi,
you have a visitor today.” Jessica
pointed at the chair, and Wildstar obediently sat down. “Derek Wildstar is a member of the Star
Force. He's going to sit with you a
while.”
“What?” Wildstar looked up at her.
“I
have some things to do. I'll be back.”
“Wha...
Where are you going?” Wildstar stared at
Jessica. He could feel the intense
reflex of unmitigated terror stretch across his face. Battling Gamilons and the quest for Iscandar
was much less daunting than the task of entertaining a sick child.
Jessica's
patience was running thin. Slowly,
calmly, she placed her hand on his shoulder and tightened her fist around a
handful of his uniform, until her hand trembled with the strain. She pulled him to her with a slight jerk and
whispered through clenched teeth.
“You're a hero to these children, Derek!
Act like it!” She suddenly
released him. He anxiously watched her
walk away and slip through the opening in the privacy
curtains. Prickly anger or not, Jessica
was still a better alternative than facing delicate innocence.
Wildstar
sat there for a long moment, rigidly aware he was being studied by the pair of
soft brown eyes. They peered at him over
folds in the blankets, studying him with curiosity as he nervously tapped his
fingers against his knee. He searched
below the privacy curtains for signs of Jessica’s boots, but to no avail. “Hello,” a small, sweet voice came from under
the blankets.
Wildstar
looked at the little creature, finally meeting its eyes. “Hello.” He was surprised by the high pitch of his own
response and he quickly cleared his throat.
“I
don’t bite!” Tiny hands pushed the covers
from its face, revealing the vividly charming smile of a little girl. She slowly rolled over on her side, facing
him. A small, stuffed bear was
strangling in her embrace. “Do
you?”
“What? Bite?
No.”
“You
went to Iscandar?”
“Yes.”
“You
should tell me a story.”
“A story?”
Wildstar hesitated at the unexpected request. “I don’t think... I don't know any stories.”
The brown eyes regarded him
suspiciously. He could feel himself
blushing under the scrutiny. Wildstar
could withstand the menacing glare of Captain Avatar, but this little imp
reduced him to quivering jello. “You’ve been all the way to Iscandar and
back, and you don’t know any stories?
It must have been a really boring trip!”
“Well,
no…” He stumbled over his own thoughts,
wondering what might be age-appropriate content for one so small. “Um… okay… um…” Wildstar scratched his head. The thought of disappointing the child, or
even scaring her, was more than he could take.
'What if I make her cry?' he thought, and he pulled at his
constricting collar. “The Argo… I mean,
the Star Force…” Perspiration trickled
down his face. “Captain Avatar…” He swallowed hard. “Is it hot in here?”
“You
don’t have kids, do you?”
“What?”
Wildstar blinked, surprised by the insightful question. He didn't recall being that smart at her
age. “No… no kids…”
“That’s
okay. You can practice on me. You’re supposed to start with ‘once upon a
time’.”
“Once upon a time?”
“Yeah,
all the classics begin with 'once upon a time'.”
“Oh...” Wildstar nodded thoughtfully, and he
smirked. He fought the urge to laugh at
her adult-like vocabulary. “Once upon a
time...” He tried the words as he
carefully considered where he might begin.
“Did
you meet Queen Starsha?” Megumi pointed
to one of her drawings on the wall, a tall, slight figure in a blue dress with
long blond hair.
“Yes!” Wildstar smiled as he glanced at it.
“Was
she beautiful?”
“Yes,
very beautiful! Like your drawing! Her hair was longer, though. All the way down to her
ankles!”
“Her ankles?”
“Yes,
all the way down to her ankles!”
Wildstar’s tenseness began to ease when he sensed the little girl's
interest. He began to recall the fairy
tales of his own childhood, wondering how he might construct something similar
from the mission. “She was very tall and
graceful. She didn't make any sound when
she walked. It was almost like she
floated!”
“Wow…
like an angel!”
The brown eyes widened.
“Exactly
like an angel.” Wildstar smiled. “Would you like to hear a story about Queen
Starsha?” The little girl nodded with
encouraging exuberance.
Wildstar
smiled with delight, but it was relief he really felt. He finally had somewhere to begin. “Well, um… once upon a time,” he said softly,
“on a planet far, far away, there was a beautiful queen in a great castle
overlooking the sea, and her name was Starsha…”
The little girl rewarded him with a broad smile and snuggled into her
pillow for his tale.
Jessica
watched them quietly from the distant shadows.
Wildstar motioned enthusiastically with his hands and arms when his
words required dramatic emphasis. His
expressions were exaggerated, almost comical.
Under any other circumstances, the awkward tenderness emerging from the
young officer would have made Jessica smile, but she stood at a distance, her
arms crossed and her jaw set.
She
listened as he described the great halls of Queen Starsha's castle and how the
colored glass of the windows sparkled and scattered breath-taking colors on
every surface. Jessica was momentarily
captivated herself. It must have been
such an incredible sight after suffering the dull, monotonous orange of the
Earth's cratered surface. On Iscandar,
the skies were so very blue, the oceans cyan, and the hills were green like
clover. Megumi had never seen clover,
but Wildstar's descriptions were vivid, almost beautiful. They were more than sufficient for the
fertile imagination of a little girl.
As
Wildstar continued, he recounted the great hospitality of the Queen herself,
and how she wished the children of Earth could see such beauty in their home
again. He spoke of the Queen's sister,
Astra, and her bravery as she attempted to deliver a message to Earth. With surprising delicacy, he described the
Queen's stoic grief at the news of her sister's passing, and finally her
loneliness on a planet vacant of human life, a Queen without a court, a ruler
without subjects to rule.
“I
hope this story get's better!” Megumi said.
“I don't want the Queen to be sad!”
“Well,
one day, on this far, far away planet, a ship fell out of the sky and crashed
into the ocean. Queen Starsha discovered
a survivor on the beach near her castle.
She found Prince Alex lying in the sand.”
“Whoa, really? A
prince fell out of the sky? Did he come
to rescue her?”
“No! Prince Alex was very sick when she found
him. It was Queen Starsha who rescued
him!”
The
child gasped. “Just like an angel!”
“Yes,
just like an angel!” Wildstar laughed
softly and nodded. But she was also a
very strong and independent woman, you see?”
Jessica
finally allowed herself a smirk. She
shook her head at his comment. 'He's doing fine.' Jessica thought, but as she watched, the
smile slowly receded from her face. The
scene conjured memories of her father's awkward attempts at such domestic necessities
after her mother passed. He tried, but
he spent more and more time with his work as Jessica grew. As flawed as he was, she still missed him.
A
familiar wave of nausea suddenly overwhelmed her. It was nagging and persistent. Suddenly, she couldn't fight it anymore. She rushed to the seclusion of a dusty
storage area and bent over a trash receptacle.
Her body rejected the meager contents of her stomach and continued to do
so, even when nothing remained.
She
wiped her mouth with the sleeve of her jacket and leaned against the wall
behind her. There was no strength in her
legs to stand, so she slid down the wall and dissolved into a heap on the dirty
floor. She would do what she had to
do. Despite
everything. Even
if there was no place for her in the world to come. It would be alright. As long as she had enough time to do what
mattered.
She
finally had the solitude she so desperately desired. In the sheltering darkness, waves of sorrow
swept over her. They were oscillations
from past events, but also dark omens of things to come. She cradled her head in her hands, muffling
the desperate sobs which escaped her. It
was a strange, but beautiful release to sink into the very depths of her
sorrow.
“What's
going on over there?” Captain Avatar's
voice was gentle, but loud enough to be heard over the baby's cry.
Jessica
nervously rocked the infant in her arms.
Her frustration was growing. It
seemed the child had been crying forever.
“I'm sorry, Captain! I didn't
mean to wake you! He was going to wake
the others if I didn't take him.”
Jessica replied, then she whispered to the
infant. “What? What is it?
You've been bathed, changed, fed... It's time to go to sleep! I don't know what you want!”
“I
was already awake. Come here with the
child.” His voice was rough and gravely,
but strangely soothing.
Jessica
slipped through the privacy curtain while gently bouncing the child in her
arms. “You should be resting, Captain.”
His
ample beard was a distinguished, silvery-white and it hid any expression on his
face, but his dark eyes were shiny and bright.
She suspected he was smiling at her.
She tilted her head to the side and smiled back at him as he held out
his large hands. “Come here,” he said.
“You
know, you can't keep coming to my rescue!
I have to learn some of this stuff for myself!” She came forward and placed the sobbing
bundle into his hands.
He
lifted the child to his broad shoulder and patted it gently on the back. “They never seem to come with a book of
instructions, do they? It was trial and
error and many sleepless nights for my wife and I when
my son was a baby.”
The
little bundle burped twice, and Jessica closed her eyes and sighed with a
realization. “Of
course!”
Captain
Avatar gently reclined the child until it was cradled it in his arms. The baby was silent, its large blue eyes
staring up him, seemingly fascinated with all of that hair.
Jessica
enjoyed her visits with the Captain. No
matter how the old man felt, he was always neatly trimmed, smelling of shaving
cream and mild cologne. His full head of
hair was silvery-white like his beard.
She found great solace in his company.
He always had time for her and he never seemed to tire of their
conversations. Her own father couldn't
even look at her anymore, and when he did, he didn't seem to see her.
“Here. One more trick.” Captain Avatar laid the child in his lap and
repositioned the blanket until the tiny form was bundled snugly into a
cocoon. “This is called swaddling. It makes them feel more secure. It worked like a charm on my son!”
“Oh,
thank you, Captain! I don't know how you
do it!”
“It's
just a little experience, Jessica. God
willing, you will get there!”
Jessica
nodded. “I'm going to have lots of
practice! It seems there are more
orphans every day!”
“What's
his story?”
“I
think he's from Chicago. His parents
were in New York when it was bombed.
They never came home. The
caretaker dropped him by here on her way to find her own family. He's young and he's healthy, which will work
in his favor when it's time to find a home.”
“Well,” the Captain said as
he gently cradled the child in his arms, “it's not today. Perhaps he could stay and keep me company?”
Jessica
placed her hand on his arm. “I would be
ever so grateful to you for watching him!
He sleeps so much better when he is held!”
“So
do I!” Captain
Avatar replied with a smile, never taking his eyes from the baby.
Jessica
smiled at the pair. They seemed perfect
for one another. The child gazed at him
in silent wonder, occasionally reaching for the Captain's beard with a tiny,
uncoordinated hand. “Are you feeling
well? Do you have any pain?”
The
Captain shook his head and he glanced at her.
“Only a little pain, but he should take care of that. Don't you worry now! We'll be just fine.”
To
Be Continued
Chapter
14 – Lullaby
Author’s
Note: Enjoy!
Disclaimer: Star Blazers is owned by Voyager
Entertainment.
Beta
Reader: Sybil Rowan! Thanks again!
Date
Written: May, 2011
Word Count: 3978